2nd UPDATE: Though my circumstances still remain severe, I have chosen to believe that something good is going to happen. All things are possible to those who believe.---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- UPDATE: I am so depressed. Because of the type of work I do, it is required for me to have a decent car and insurance before I will even be considered for positions. I have neither. I have tried applying for other types of work and I keep being told that I am over-qualified and/or because I haven't done certain types of work in a long time, they don't think I can still do it, which is crazy. I need a job, but can't get one without a car. I am a quick study, whether I have done something or not. What in the world is a girl to do??? Life really hurts. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Almost 4 years ago, I lost a really good job. I was a GSA contractor, which I traveled a multi-state territory visiting all branches of the military, colleges and universities. My position was as an Interior Designer. Because of my accomplished career, I now keep being told that I am "over-qualified." I am willing to do anything, but can't seem to get anyone to hire me. My savings is now gone and I had to down size my SUV, because I could no longer afford the maintenance and gas. I loved my SUV and it was sad to see it go. The car I did get was a 1998 Saturn SL2. It was definitely a down grade, but was very happy to still have wheels. But that too is now giving me major problems. As mentioned... My car has recently totally gone down hill at a rapid pace. To name some of the major issues. It burns 1-2 quarts of oil about every two weeks. It has major electrical issues and will either lock me out of the car or inside the car and it takes me quite some time to free myself. Plus...it has convulsion like noices that are sometimes hard to stop. I am afraid it might catch fire with me in it. One of the windows in the back is broken and so that is another safety issue. It pours water from the visor when it rains. It looks like I peed my pants when I get out of the car. It is very embarrassing. I have tape going across the molding to keep water from coming in now, but the rain has found another place to enter. When it rains water pours in from the dashboard and my feet and legs get soaked. The car stinks so bad now, because of all the water damage. My heater and air conditional now has a clicking sound when I turn it on. It gets really cold when I have to go out because of no heat. The fan belt squeals so bad, it sometimes slips. However... Now I have to have my car charged every few days because it dies on me. They say it is not the battery. Again...there is so much wrong with it that it would be cheaper to get another car. Plus, because I can't afford insurance, I can't get current tags on the car either, plus the cops recently pulled me over and gave me a ticket of $750, which is one more thing that I can't afford to pay. I want insurance so badly, but have no way of getting any. I have no way to get a job, go to the grocery store without a car, because of no public transportation systems in my area. I am a single female who has been completely devastated financially. Once in a while I find an odd job, but I need steady work, but can't get it without a good car and insurance. I try not asking for help, but sometimes I have found that I have to, or I won't survive. It is very humbling for me. During the holidays I lost 3 friends and my step mom, all within a 30 day period, which I had no money to attend any of the funerals, nor did I have a decent car to get me there. Then my heart broke again when I had to put my beautiful dog Franklin down 2 days before Christmas, because I didn't have the money for the medical care he so desperately needed. I didn't want him to hurt any more. I was with him when he passed, holding him, telling him how much I loved him and how I was going to miss him. I dream of being able to come home and not worry whether or not my home will be taken away from me. It is not expensive and it needs a few repairs. I wish some how it would be paid for and then if I lose my utilities, though it would be tough...my dog Spencer and I would have a roof over our heads. I am now digging through garbage cans to hopefully find winning lotto tickets to help keep the utilties on and feed my remaining dog. I am so tired of having to beg to keep my utilities on and I'm running out of places who will help me. I want to be employed again. Get my dignity back. I have many talents, especially in the creative field. I have even thought about going into the culinary field, if I could get the proper training. I am a great cook and enjoy it very much. I even understand why people commit suicide. So much pain and suffering for long periods of time, takes a toll on anyone. The feeling of hopelessness becomes so overwhelming. I don't sleep any more and have gained a lot of weight because of all the stress. I have always helped people when I had money and I am hoping that it's my turn to receive a miracle. If you could please help me, I would be so grateful and not take your kindness for granted.